The Abscence of Your Bark

  Please excuse the extreme timeframe between my posts. Our lives have been incredibly busy since October! We have moved states and started a new chapter in our lives - things have been interesting. I also apologise if the grammatical and spelling side of this post is insane, I'm posting from my Nook!

But let's start this post in earnest.

The Doofy Dog Blog Presents:

The Absence of Your Bark

A Poem

A. Colson

I've started these lines 

a million times

And felt the pain of loss

I've cussed and cried 

and wondered why

You had to leave my side

The absence of your bark

My dear

Leaves craters in my heart

The cold wet nose

That was so close

A distant memory

It seems just yesterday I held you

And everything was fine

I keep expecting

To see you

To hug you like you're still mine

I've cried until it hurts

I've cried until I can't

I've cried until I can't remember

Whatever started this rant

I miss your soft fur

The gold inside your eyes

I remember your last day

Your soft and painful cries

I can't understand why

Dogs can't live forever

I hate that you guys die

The absence of your bark

My dear

Leaves my ears so empty

We used to cuddle

Love, and play

And fill my days aplenty

If I could spend one more day

The hotdogs would never end

The belly rubs would last forever

I'd hold you close, my friend

I'm getting used to it now

My love

The absence of your bark

But I will carry you every day

Inside my wounded heart.

A few days before Thanksgiving 2013, my beautiful Bobsie, who will forever be my Heart Dog went over the Rainbow Bridge. I spent seven of her 16 beautiful years with her. She was my grooming guinea pig when I was first learning, my strength to leave an abusive relationship, my inspiration to keep going in the army, my crying shoulder during my husband's deployment, my daughter's first nannydog, and the best listener to ever grace my life. At the age of 16, cancer got the best of her and we decided to leave her with as much dignity as possible. She was even graceful in her passing.

I have lost many dogs in my life, each special in his or her own way, and it is never easy, but even now, in January, almost two months after her passing, my heart is still heavy. 

There are those who tell you yo get over it. She was just a dog... and I feel sorry for those people, because they don't know the friendship and loyalty that all dogs are capable of, the reason that no dog is ever "just a dog".

Those of you who have lost your beloved furkids, please feel free to post photos and memories of them in this post. They will always be special to us, no matter how long it has been.